Sunday, October 09, 2005
so painful. so so so painful. so hurting. whats there to be done. so painful. how and when can this stop. when can the pain stop. when is this going to stop hurting. so damn painful. smiled and said goodbye didnt i. people say its ok. people say its just this period. this period is so long. its not ok. i despise this. i hate this. i dont like this. its so hard. so difficult. taking so long. deleting the smses is painful. reading the emails is painful. seeing the photos is painful. being reminded of you is painful. the final talk was painful. and i see how ugly things have turned into from what was so beautiful. you say you regret it. i regret everything too. if ive ruined your life, you did that to mine too. and its about to stop. and then it'll really be ok. and then i'll look back and feel nothing. and then i will be heartless towards you. you said i dont understand you, i said you dont either. you think im angry with you, im not. i hate to admit that i always have a soft spot towards you. but two months is enough time for brooding. and from now on, please just let me off. i just want to be happy, without you. thank you for your love, it hurts me too much.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
so painful. so so so painful. so hurting. whats there to be done. so painful. how and when can this stop. when can the pain stop. when is this going to stop hurting. so damn painful. smiled and said goodbye didnt i. people say its ok. people say its just this period. this period is so long. its not ok. i despise this. i hate this. i dont like this. its so hard. so difficult. taking so long. deleting the smses is painful. reading the emails is painful. seeing the photos is painful. being reminded of you is painful. the final talk was painful. and i see how ugly things have turned into from what was so beautiful. you say you regret it. i regret everything too. if ive ruined your life, you did that to mine too. and its about to stop. and then it'll really be ok. and then i'll look back and feel nothing. and then i will be heartless towards you. you said i dont understand you, i said you dont either. you think im angry with you, im not. i hate to admit that i always have a soft spot towards you. but two months is enough time for brooding. and from now on, please just let me off. i just want to be happy, without you. thank you for your love, it hurts me too much.
