Beautifully Broken

Sunday, October 30, 2005

things have been a whole flurry mess these couple of weeks. met mag outside the library just now and she said i look shagged. BINDER YOU SUCK YOU HAVE CAUSED ME TO LOOK UGLY.

legend of zorro with chris last night or shld i say this morning (1215 flick). now i remember why i liked catherine zeta jones (: home at three, hot bath till 4 (since hall shower is so not hot), and tried bindering again. until i kept falling asleep for like twenty times at typing "Strunk v. Strunk". thank God there's hols next week, albeit still having to do bindering. just make my day.

i need more time, and more excitement, and more fun.

2:16 PM

Thursday, October 13, 2005

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless.
You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.
What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

5:07 PM

i see i must blog more to push the below entries away from visible sight. i guess after all these ive finally more or less seen through it. maybe it was two wrong people, with clashing personalities. or perhaps two right people at the wrong time, with me entering uni. nonetheless, there was something wrong which caused the eventual end, and its all too bad then.

anyhows, i really love these people (:

peiqin - you're always there and i know no matter what wacky thing i tell you, you can always accept it because, you're even wackier. hahaha. but thanks babe for being there at the worst of times, for understanding how i feel and yet trying to bring me to my senses. im really glad i met you. stop fretting over your.... various you know. hahaha

brenda - haha stupid woman thanks for your insightful comments about men and thanks for always plopping on my room floor to accompany me (not withstanding the fact that you need a place to slack n slp as well)

teresa - its been super long since ive seen you babe. but thanks for offering to organise boycotts and all sorts of revengeful plans. haha pls meet up soon!

chih - hey babe! thanks so much for the nydc cheesecake! and offering your rm for bunking in! haha love listening to your scandal(s) and hrmm replying ON your msn! haha thanks for listening and letting me know that some people are just, not worth it. i love you!

mel - hello neighbour! haha thanks for your milk (or shld i thank john) and all your "he's such a girl!" comments. haha seeing you n john sometimes makes me feel that relationships arent such a torture afterall. hrmm. haha and stop spelling darth vader wrongly.

zexi - haha another one which i seldom see but always there. thanks for your smses all the way from down under. you're really one good pal.

christopher - i dont think you will see this actually, haha but thanks for your daily smses and updates about your navy life. i feel like im in NS too, you're not alone! and where is my chick? hrmm.

chris (thammy) - thanks for your coffeebean cheesecake! it was really a pleasant surprise! haha ok you're my fav male squash capt (then again i only have one)

wilson - haha hello thanks for your mango dessert and offering your laptop for watching sweet november (can i watch corpse bride as well?) haha yeaps, thanks for listening to all my looong stories.

ken - tsk. i dunno why i see you then i think of "diu". seems like you say it most often. haha but anyways, thanks for your chocs n mango drink (although i did feel kinda retarded to count to 20 when you asked me to). and also the banana controversy. p/s that day i saw banana boxers. was so tempted to buy to disiao you. haha you another one so happy with gf like mel n john, that makes me so amazed. 50 months and no big fights? haha you better teach me how. hrmm.. do buy me something from bali end of the yr! (pray no bombs)

denise - dunno if you'll read this, but thanks girl for reminding me that certain things arent worth the effort. i wish you'll stay more in hall ): but i guess if you can get a car, its a better deal!

wm - hahahaha thanks for the eggtarts. and i wanna shop soon pls

albert - you really suck (i know you dont know my blog) and no integrity. haha but thanks for cooking supper n buying yakult. haha although its been a long time since i talked to you abt vampire show.

if i left you out and you think i really shld thank you, haha let me know. and i'll decide whether to add you in. haha. meanwhile i see a fly on my window. must catch.

11:58 AM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

so painful. so so so painful. so hurting. whats there to be done. so painful. how and when can this stop. when can the pain stop. when is this going to stop hurting. so damn painful. smiled and said goodbye didnt i. people say its ok. people say its just this period. this period is so long. its not ok. i despise this. i hate this. i dont like this. its so hard. so difficult. taking so long. deleting the smses is painful. reading the emails is painful. seeing the photos is painful. being reminded of you is painful. the final talk was painful. and i see how ugly things have turned into from what was so beautiful. you say you regret it. i regret everything too. if ive ruined your life, you did that to mine too. and its about to stop. and then it'll really be ok. and then i'll look back and feel nothing. and then i will be heartless towards you. you said i dont understand you, i said you dont either. you think im angry with you, im not. i hate to admit that i always have a soft spot towards you. but two months is enough time for brooding. and from now on, please just let me off. i just want to be happy, without you. thank you for your love, it hurts me too much.

4:43 PM

Saturday, October 08, 2005

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
How Are You In Love?

2:21 PM

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy.
You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.
What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

smart aleck? biggest personality? *rolls laughing

11:10 PM

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

"forced to break up with someone..." haha. sigh.

10:26 PM

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me
there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember, please remember me
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
And remember, please remember me
And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I had you and you had me
Please remember, Please remember

10:11 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

im not as happy as i should be just because...
- behind my smile there's a broken heart
- behind my faith for the future there's a hidden past
- behind closed doors there're tears falling
- behind a strong facade there's a lost soul
- behind my daily routine lies escapism
- behind my disdain there is still hurt

and behind all denial, i still feel the pain.

no more brooding. squash trials tonight (:
whoever said geminis dont really have split personalities.

1:39 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.
What Kind of Seducer Are You?

haha now you know, quizzes aren't always accurate.

6:23 PM

reaching the big two
loves God, loves home, loves life
law school

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